An Ode To You

To hear you say that you want me,
To hear you say that you love me,
Bringing a smile to my face,
One that I can't remove right now,
Thinking of you,
In the way I know how.

Let me be the one,
Your one and only,
The one that you love,
Cherish and adore.
The one who loves you dearly,
The one who trusts you completely,
The one who believes in you,
Who will always believe in you.

It's strange how two hearts,
Combine as one,
If one heart would stop beating,
The other one slowly shall too.

We're so many miles apart,
But we have each other’s hearts,
They won't beat forever,
So cherish it while you can.

I lie alone at night,
Staring out into the cold dark night,
Knowing that you are asleep,
Tucked in from any harm,
Snuggled up in your bed,
Wishing you was here instead.

If I could,
I would move heaven and earth,
Just to be with you,
Even if it was just for one day.

A day would never be enough,
For you and I,
So many things to say to you,
I'm sure I would run out of time.

I'd watch and listen to you,
With so much love,
I'm sure that you'll get paranoid,
With every cheeky smile.

Our time together,
Would be so worthwhile,
Just to hold you in my arms,
Would be sufficient enough for me,
To remember that moment,
Years from now,
Will always bring back the tears to my eyes.

© Clair Sanders

Lost Soul

To watch you crumble,
To watch you fall.
Makes me worry,
That you will lose it all.

As a friend I can see,
That your in trouble,
And not worry free.

To turn to your demons,
To go back to the gutter,
Doesn't help matters,
So I watch you falter.

To be drink free,
To be happy,
It's always been a possibility.

Dreams are often hard to reach.
But a lost soul like yours..
Need a familar hand to reach out to.

No matter how mad I become,
No matter if I contemplate throwing in the towel,
I am a friend.
A confidant,
And a listener.

I don't, nor will I judge you by your problems.
The only time I will judge you is by your actions.

Be the man I know you can be,
Then your dreams may become a reality.

Stand up,
Be counted,
Be strong.

Use your mind and your strength
to get you through the demon.
Pour the drink away.

There is one thing I never want to do,
And that is to break you in to two.

So stand up,
Make your voice heard,
Make it a new beginning and not the end.

Be a survivor,
Be who you want to be.
A husband, a father, a brother and a friend.

Good luck to you on your journey,
May you get there in the end.

© Clair Sanders

Butterfly

Spread your wings,
Time to fly.
Say goodbye to what you know as hell.
Head for the horizon,
So clear and blue.

Put your past behind you,
It's where it belongs.
The new day is dawning,
A new life ahead is ready to rise.

Forget those who have scorned you,
Or burned you along the way.
Tomorrow is another day,
To spread your wings and fly.

Life doesn't last forever,
Soon your flight will be done.
So look in to the blazing sun,
And realise what you could become.

Something beautiful and strong,
full of life and care free.
Never mind the beasts on the way,
They'll never know the strength inside.
To let us fly,
To let us be free.

© Clair Sanders

Why Can't You See?

Why do you appear blind?
I passed you today,
But I was just a face
In the passing crowd.

I walked on,
Pretending of your non existence,
But then I stood still,
Turning back around,
To face the crowd.

You haven't changed in any way,
Still have your hair up
in the "nurses bun".
Looking elegant,
Same stance,
Yet I do not approach.

I wanted to,
To get unresolved issues answered.
To ask questions that play on my mind,
All coming from when I was a growing child.

My heart melted slightly,
Remembering the aunt I once adored,
The one that cared for us,
For our family,
Yet who would have known
That the future would bring,
Broken promises, tears and back stabbing lies.

I laughed with my mum,
Your sister,
Knowing that you wouldn't approve
Of the forward style I have,
But what am I to you; Nothing.

You have been gone years,
Why can't you see?
Can't see who I have become.

If nana was here today,
There is no doubt in my mind
That our family would be united,
But alas she isn't here,
So we are divided.

Her rose bush will always bloom,
For the love of her family,
Shame it's fallen apart,
But the way I see things now,
It's your loss.

You may be grieving right now,
But without a strong family by your side,
Doesn't it make you wonder,
How much support you would receive,
How much love that you would have felt,
Yet you decided to go down a different path.

You've failed to see your family grow,
Three different personalities,
Three different sets of life,
Three humourous adults,
Thought provoking,
Yet you remain blind.

You will never see,
Of what could have been,
A joyous time in your life,
Nephews and a niece,
Growing up,
Gaining minds of thier own.

"I was blind but now I can see"
If only...
Why can't you see?
You've hurt me...

© Clair Sanders